Sunday, December 16, 2007

There is one thing I can do nothing about.

Before I begin to let my myself get lost in thought, I would like to say that Danger from the Manger was a lot of fun. The weather was crappy but there was still a good turn out.
I forget lyrics if I don't have someone else right there singing them with me.

Anyways, I got a good punch in the face last night. Not to shabby.

I feel sometimes tho, as if everyone else around me is so consumed in what everyone else is saying or doing. What about right now? What about that moment. 
I myself am guilty of doing this. I was driving home today and I was thinking about the impossibility of time stopping. Having everyone that is around me stuck in that moment, while time is still going for me. If I could have I would have took off running. So that when time came back into play. I could be anywhere I wanted, and I could have been gone from where I was in the blink of an eye.
This is so random and weird I know.


Besides, no one will really read all of this. Thats why I got this. So people who care enough to see what I have to say may. 

Another thing that was thrown in my face this weekend. I feel like Im temporary for whoever I'm around. I don't know what it is about me, or people that after a few months everyones moved on and I've moved out. My friends are constantly changing. The only constant in my life has been music, and the Bridge, and my mom.

For once in my life, I do not want to have to have this happen again, I don't want to meet anymore people. I don't want to have to try and trust anyone new. I like where I am and I don't want that to change. I want to know that in a year from now, I'll still have the same people who care for me now, still around. 
Am I the one who leaves, or am I the one who gets left?
Im scared for many reasons, but I'm willing to be blindly lead by faith, and hopefully I am a leader, not a follower.
God will take me down the path I belong on.
I just hope there is a path I belong to.



Paz

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